I'm not a poster... of anything... so here we go!
I’ve been one of those people who look at others posting comments on facebook groups and updating their status as a ritual and think what the hell? Do they not have anything better to do with their time? And who cares anyway...
“and of course I do as I’m feverishly reading through everyone else’s updates and participating from the sideline”
I’ve been one of those people who look at others posting comments on facebook groups and updating their status as a ritual and think what the hell? Do they not have anything better to do with their time? And who cares anyway... and of course I do as I’m feverishly reading through everyone else’s updates and participating from the sideline. Please, no offense to any of my friends who do this. If you keep reading you will see that your act of putting yourself out there is a lesson for me! As with all my posts I’m confronting those things that I push against or have a strong negative reaction to, to understand a) why does the subject create a negative response in my psyche b) is it a natural response or am I a unique freek to push away from the topic or c) am I just plain right? While the old me would have defaulted to I’m just right, I am now learning to look under the hood of anything that creates a strong positive or negative emotional reaction.
I’ve realized in this topic my emotional and mental response is strongly rooted in fear. Fear that my ideas aren’t really important, that people may judge my comments or that worse no one would react or reply at all. The ultimate rejection right? So I’ve decided to slowly dip my toe in the water. The funniest thing is my first ever post was to a community facebook page….
“Hey everyone, we had a huge raccoon on our upper deck tonight. If you have loved indoor pets please beware.”
I was so proud of myself for finally posting something….
Then the moderator responded….”Why are you afraid, do you think the raccoon will get in your house?”
OMG - What? No - of course not, they may have opposable thumbs but… Instead of being embarrassed or angry I just laughed. I failed to share that I sometimes let my beloved indoor pets “outside”. Into the loving arms of the house stalking - door opening raccoons!
I’m taking stock daily of simple things that are creating this kind of response to learn more about my motivators and areas where I have a HUGE opportunity for growth and awareness. My 48 hour challenge to you is to:
Identify a scenario that creates a sense of anger, frustration or strong judgement.
Reflect on WHY you feel this way.
Describe 3 situations where you had a choice to act a different way but it was uncomfortable so you chose to judge and sit on the sideline.
Think of one scenario where you can break free from the fear and step outside of your comfort zone.
As always reflection is great but writing your thoughts down has SO much more power. Meditate, reflect and grow!
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